There is a big ball in my throat upon which I am choking. I don’t have words. But I don’t want to be quiet. I twiddled with my thumbs for an hour before I started typing. Forgive me for this repetition of emotional outburst, that you may have seen all over the web, but when in grief and shock, you rarely make sense. It’s just words and you and a white wall you want to fill. You don’t bother what you write about, but you know that as long as you can vent your anger out, as long as you can press those squares of alphabets that huddle to make a story, that go out to the world and tell them about you, your grief, your existence, you don’t feel helpless. You want to keep throwing stones in the pond, keep creating ripples until they reach the other end. I do not know what is that “other end” for me. May be its you, or you, or them. But I know this tiny bit of truth, that remorse is never the answer. It muffles all sounds and clogs all thoughts. And that is what the human garbage, the shit-heads tried to do in Peshawer. But we are not going to let them succeed. We do not want martyrs at the hands of a pile of pig-shit. We want our kids to be good human beings, not martyrs, thank you.

They targeted our school, our kids. We’ll educate more. We’ll never stop.

And what a slap it was on their dirty faces when all schools were kept open today, post-calamity.

#PeshawerAttack #16 December #12/16 

©2014. Habiba Danyal


Be a star thrower with Pakistan mei hum hain!

When we were in school, our Principal once told us a story. The story was from the famous Loren Eiseley’s The Star Thrower. The story inspired us all and left us wondering how we could make a difference.

One student however was driven a little more than the rest of us. So she decided to pick one star fish up and throw it back into the sea to save it from dying. Some friends and family saw what she was doing and joined in. Together they have saved quite a few star fish and God willing, will continue doing so under the banner of “Pakistan mei hum hain”.

Pakistan mei hum hain figuratively adopts kids, our little fish, and pays for their education making sure that they consistently appear at school, quench their thirst for knowledge and are praised and appreciated for their achievements. Because of Pakistan mei hum hain, non-payment of school fee is no more a reason for drop-outs from school for our little fish.

PMHH, with the help of its permanent donors and some wonderful youngsters who buy their special Independence Day tees has been sending seventeen kids to school Alhamdulillah and aspires to increase this number in the upcoming years.

Although its main aim is education, PMHH, does not sit still at times of natural calamities and disasters. In 2013, PMHH, sent donations and food items for the earthquake victims of District Awaran and District Turbat of Balochistan province, through our most trusted source, the Pakistan Army. While in March 2014, with the help of its donors, basic food items, like grains, sugar, milk and medicines sufficient to feed 100 families for a month were sent to Tharparkar.

Pakistan mei hum hain (We exist in Pakistan) strange as the title may sound to you, is actually a reply to the grudging complaining lot who often ask “Pakistan mei hai kia?” (What is there in Pakistan?).

This year’s Pakistan mei hum hain t-shirt, answers this question beautifully.

“Very often people ask “What is the concept behind Pakistan mei hum hain?” 

Pakistan mei hum hain is not just a sentence, it promotes the feeling of owning your country. It is for the people who think they need a good leader to change Pakistan or a miracle. Pakistan mei hum hain tells you that YOU are that miracle. You can make a difference. We can work for the betterment of our nation.

When they say Pakistan mei ab kuch nahi hai, say to yourself abi hum hain. aur jab tk hum hain Pakistan b rahay ga. Insha’Allah

This is what “Pakistan mei hum hain” is all about.”

                                                     -Pakistan mei hum hain

This year as well Pakistan mei hum hain, is selling out some cool tees and hand bands to raise funds for  the education and food of the underprivileged. You can be a part of our star throwing, and hurl one fish back into the sea.

For adopting a fish, donations and details:

Visit their facebook page: Pakistan mei hum hain

Or Call: 0331-2281703

P.S. I am a star thrower. Are you?

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